Something New

I don't know what this is

 

It could be friendship

It could be more

I feel different

I feel me

I am not ashamed

I am not scared

I know whatever this is

It will be great

The love for God is evident and amazing

The heart for leading people to God seems even greater

I don't know what this is but

I know that it will never be me

I know whatever this is

It will be great

It will always and only be GOD

Emotions

So many emotions are running through my mind right now! Some of them are new and in this moment and some of them have been in my mind for such a long time. I dont know if I have the energy to write it all down. It is so overwhelming sometimes. These feelings sometimes just take over and I dont know what to do or feel or think. I wish it was all simple and I had all the answers but I don't. I wish so badly that I knew the future and what is coming but sadly I am not God. I don't know these things. 

Why is it so hard to relinquish control of our lives?